I wanted to die.

18 years ago when I was in 9th grade I was at my heaviest.

I was 50 pounds heavier than I am now.

I was eating and drinking everything I wanted.

I was going down the wrong path.

I put an end to it.

I started running and training.

15 years later I’m at my lightest since middle school.

I’m the fittest I’ve ever been in my entire life.

It didn’t come easy and naturally.

I worked hard for it.

11 years ago I graduated from college.

I was lost and confused.

9 years ago I lost my mom to suicide.

Following my graduation and my mom’s death, I was severely depressed.

I struggled with disordered eating.

All I wanted to do was sleep.

And die.

I wanted to die.

I’ve come a long way.

I’ve been working on myself physically and mentally for years.

I’ve dedicated my life to living healthy.

I’m still a work in progress.

I still have a ways to go.

The reason I write this is because I know what it’s like to struggle physically and mentally.

I know what it’s like to have zero self-esteem and zero self-confidence.

Running and strength training changed my life physically and mentally.

Reading, learning, and writing have helped me tremendously mentally.

I hope this gives you hope.

I want you to know that you too can get better.

You have the power to change.

Take care of yourself.

Take care of your health.

I want you to be healthy.

I want you to feel good.

I want you to be happy.

Fresh Footprints

We can see the beaten path.

It’s been trampled.

We perceive it as safe because it’s been traveled.

So we take it.

We find out all of the good stuff has been taken.

It’s scary venturing into new territory.

We don’t like the unknown and uncertainty.

But that’s where the opportunities are.

That’s where the beauty is.

As scary as it is, I will be brave.

I will forge ahead into the unknown.

I will create my own path.

It’s quite a journey.

It’s not for the faint of heart.

It’s long.

It’s lonely.

But it’s fulfilling.

And I know it’s worth it.

Dreams come true on our own path.

Prioritize It

We can have what we want.

We can do anything.

We can have anything.

We have to make it a priority.

We have to focus on it.

We have to think about it.

We have to dedicate time to it.

We have to put effort into it.

We have to work for it.

We can get it if we prioritize it.

In My Power

I can’t promise a specific outcome. I can promise to do everything in my power.

How bad do we want it?

We can get what we want.

We can have what we desire.

We just have to make our mind up and decide to do it.

We have to act decisively and with conviction.

Do we want it bad enough right now?

Changes

What we want changes.

Priorities change.

We change.

Life changes.

Everything changes.

When it changes it changes.

Until it changes, embrace the stage we’re currently in.

I Want It All

I want it all.

I can have anything. I can’t have everything.

I can do anything. I can’t do everything.

I can be anything. I can’t be everything.

So what do I really want?

Power of Positive

Positive thoughts become positive energy.

Positive thoughts and energy become positive experiences.

Positive thoughts, energy, and experiences become a positive life.

Fill Your Life

We become what we think.

We become what we read, watch, and listen to.

We become who we spend time with.

We become the people around us.

Whatever you want, fill your life with it.

Where our thoughts go our energy flows.

Where our thoughts go our energy flows.

We get more of what we think about, pay attention to, and focus on.

The more we think about it the more we get.

It all starts in our mind.

So be selective with our thoughts.